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Since I can remember (age 5) sexuality has been a large part of my life. I'll spare you the numerous stories of youthful passion and exploration. What's pertinent to this bit of past is the dreaming path that is re-birthed 4 me in every moment revolving around another body of passion and bliss. Sexuality comes in different forms (thank goddess) and varying degrees. Mine is intensely passionate. The 1 thing I prefer 2 do more than play with my instruments is to play with the body. At about age 15 I visioned the entaglement of blissful passion with another. I could see it/ feel it. An eternal dance of the moment which can barely b conveyed through images much less words. Like electrons sharing the same nucleous- moving in balance and harmony. Like spherical magnets that spin endlessly around a shared axis. Kissing- ever kissing. Touching- all limbs moving with mindless passionate precision.... caressing the face of lover, coarsing the hair in mid-kiss and thrust, traveling all continents of the body with both hands- use both hands. Such balance of mutual initiation and response of lips and tongues keeping both mouths from departure, gazing-probing eyes with eyes and sighs as hips dance with thighs and ties us together-
This has been my fantasy, my dream- not glued to physical appearance, but rather to harmonious movement (of independent initiative) and the never-ending, always ecstatic kiss-
Well- after 25+ years and much more than 25+ partners- she came 2 me- with me-
Now, I am a little confused. I have searched this dream- much of the time thinking it was an almost but not quite dream of reality-
With all my lovers (whom I love each and every) I have never experienced such n0-mind bliss and harmony- I was overwhelmed-
I be-life in true love- no rules, no expectations, etc... that remains, and now I have gained these questions 4 any with insight-
Have you known what I am speaking of? and Did you ever find another lover with such harmony?
Now, b4 you begin your discourse, I am quite aware and thankful of the differences between lovers. This is not a question of the appreciation of diversity- this is a rare and exotic bird of fluid harmony- Have you found such a balance in another lover?
This has been my fantasy, my dream- not glued to physical appearance, but rather to harmonious movement (of independent initiative) and the never-ending, always ecstatic kiss-
Well- after 25+ years and much more than 25+ partners- she came 2 me- with me-
Now, I am a little confused. I have searched this dream- much of the time thinking it was an almost but not quite dream of reality-
With all my lovers (whom I love each and every) I have never experienced such n0-mind bliss and harmony- I was overwhelmed-
I be-life in true love- no rules, no expectations, etc... that remains, and now I have gained these questions 4 any with insight-
Have you known what I am speaking of? and Did you ever find another lover with such harmony?
Now, b4 you begin your discourse, I am quite aware and thankful of the differences between lovers. This is not a question of the appreciation of diversity- this is a rare and exotic bird of fluid harmony- Have you found such a balance in another lover?
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Wed, March 21, 2007 - 6:23 PMis this post too long? - i am hoping 4 some responses- i've never experienced this kind of synthesis,... and now that i have- i wonder how deep the rabbit hole goes... if you ever found such lover's perfection, did u find another?
blissings,
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Thu, March 22, 2007 - 10:09 AMNever before for me, but it sounds wonderful and I am very excited for you. -
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Thu, March 22, 2007 - 3:45 PMI've experienced a bit of this before in my life and am intently hoping to know it again.
Me and this ex just seemed to know exactly what the other liked. And when told, subtly about a certain preference, was even able to pick up the intricacies that weren't explained. We even had a few moments out of the bedroom where we literally heard each other's unspoken thoughts. Truly a wondrous feeling of awe...
Congratulations! May you both enjoy it completely for as long as it lasts. -
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Thu, March 22, 2007 - 5:08 PMthanks 4 the insightful replies-
it was a bit ironic today as the question answered itself as well- which is a bit more exciting than the experience was...
basically this woman who seemed entirely present throughout the time/space passsion portal we shared, text messaged me today (i never got into text messaging but...) saying "...the evening didn't go as i planned (though i did enjoy it), but i want our interactions to be platonic..."
which, in part, was the impetous 4 my question- and in her present absence of this clear and blissful eternal moment, i can kNow that this energy and higher exists- (thank goddess), and i still welcome and invite others 2 reply- i'd like 2 hear other experiences of wonder.
Reverend: awesome connection, u said it very well "to know exactly what the other liked. And when told, subtly about a certain preference, was even able to pick up the intricacies that weren't explained"- it has little 2 do with technique, though there is touching and a buzzing consuming desire 4 each other. whaaaaaa-... this one's (relationship) done, butt i am creating another... sky-.... wal-.... ker 2 dance with in 4 dimensional space and am propelled and encouraged from this experience and yours- thank U.
sat chit ananda,
Tasi
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Fri, March 23, 2007 - 12:22 PMHi Tasi,
Since you asked about your post, I wanted to comment on that. When I read your writing, I often get confused, spaced out, and distracted. There is a lot of metaphor and word-play in your writing, and it is difficult for me to pick apart what exactly you're talking about, and what you're asking.
So it's easier for me to just not respond. We may have different styles of communication or thought patterns, but it boils down to a thought that's something like "What the hell is this guy talking about?!?"
Glad to hear you've had intense, deep sexual connection with someone recently. (If that's what you're saying; I'm not sure.)
cheers,
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Sat, March 24, 2007 - 12:11 AMthank u all 4 your feedback/ connection.
Jon- thanks 4 speaking up- and being blunt. i often think about how much communication is lost between the message sent and the message recieved... and, inversely, how messages can be made clear when we r willing 2 actively communicate with each other.
so, yeah- sharing an "intense, deep sexual connection with someone recently" is a chunk of what i was saying. 2 be concise i was relaying the experience on another level (mostly 2 give an understanding of how it was different from say... really good sex- this interaction was a different animal all together) 2 see how common the experience is and to explore the phenomenon.
2 be vulnerable and honest, i was a bit concerned when i uploaded the post... for fear that i had been blessed with an experience that i might never have again-
now, i see much deeper than this- and i am creating a new world of passionate possibilities and a way of being ecstatic.
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Fri, March 23, 2007 - 9:01 PMare you a poet? Because you dance divinely with words and images ... and these things can be just as tangible an energy field as breath and skin ....
People are way too willing to define/confine themselves in this way .... I have experienced exstacy/connection with someone from miles away, who I had never met, but was able to commune with me on a level that was both spiritual and primal .... It didn't translate when we actually met (this was a pen pal from my teenage years who had found me online later in life), but that doesn't negate the experience, which was real for both of us. We are more than our bodies, and our energy fields can reach as long as our imaginations and desires .... Blessings to you for not limiting yourself, and good luck in your seeking...
-C
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Re: When 2 R 1-
Sat, March 24, 2007 - 10:35 AMI just finished reading Georg Feuerstein's excellent book "Sacred Sexuality". He's got several descriptions of experiences similar to yours in there. Sexual union is one of what Aldous Huxley called "the Doors" - i.e. "mundane" experiences that can open up into transcendental experiences where the ego is (albeit temporarily) lost.
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Sun, March 25, 2007 - 1:54 PMTasi--
THAT was SEXY!!
Mostly, I've known such perfect sexual union, only in my dreams, as in shamanic journeys. And mostly only with people who live very far away from me, and whom I have never met.
But it's real to me, all the same. And I know it's real to them.
The song lyrics which they end up writing, and composing, recording, and publishing widely, tell me so.
I have been to several live rock concerts, where I definitely got noticed by band members, and where I definitely influenced their energy in a positive, sexy way.
