there has been so much discussion about the dynamics and fundamentals of self reflection in the context of jealousy and intimacy; but im still at a basic level and I need some insight! I identify as bisexual, my husband and I have had many lovely experiences w/ women- however I exist in this fantasy of watching hi fuck other women while I am forced to observe, at which time I am pissed and extremely turned on. I can barely have "normal" sex without calling up a fantasy. While I know that 'kinks' are what they are I feel confused as to what is healthy and what is low self esteem.
reflections?
reflections?
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Re: jealousy and fantasy
Tue, January 29, 2008 - 7:32 AM"...my husband and I have had many lovely experiences w/ women- however I exist in this fantasy of watching hi[m] fuck other women while I am forced to observe..."
Hi Sabrina,
I'm not sure if this answers your question but here's my contribution:
I am in a tri-union with two women and we have sex together as well separately -in paired engagement (all combinations of pairs). We've found that our sex together -as a threesome- is greatly enhanced by keeping our focus on our three-ness connection and the 'entrainment' of energy between us as we move and sex together.
Too much focusing on paired-ness during these sessions leads to "what-about-me?" showing up, and someone feeling left out. To counteract this we came up with: 1. the affirmation: "know you are loved, know you are welcome" -which encourages anyone feeling left out to just join back in, and 2. the three of us try to maintain a "three-connection" awareness to support our intention of having a bodily-felt sexual expression of our unity.
We're also playing with watching our personal agenda's during our tri-union sex sessions -and setting them aside in favor of undirected/un-agenda 'd "Tantric" experience -that encourages Ego-less sex.
Love and Light,
Sunyata
www.mythiclove.net/sunyata
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Re: jealousy and fantasy
Fri, February 1, 2008 - 9:06 AMHm, well Sabrina...
It sounds like you may find the feeling of jealousy erotic. Granted, this kind requires some finesse or it can become disasterous really quickly, but that's true for most things.
The tell is that if you think about your SO having sex with someone in front of you, does it call up the same emotions as say... if he cheated on you?
I enjoy the idea of watching Linz fuck someone in front of me, and while I know very little about cuckholding, I'm seeing alot of parallels. The difference is I do believe if anyone came into my house and tried to be my wife's "bull" the result would be.... less than pretty. lol
Jealousy can be very erotic, not only that but if it comes from sexual experiences you are both a part of that feeling can be recalled and cultivated into renewed desire. It's an entirely tasty idea to me, and I have a feeling from what you've said that it's becoming one for you too. Just keep in mind the level of jealousy has a very thin line, and there isn't much room for either of you to step over it before the whole thing is ruined. So tread carefully.
Just my .02
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